6 Weeks and Bleeding

This last week has been an emotional rollercoaster. On Sunday evening I noticed spots of blood after going to the loo. I tried to think nothing of it. I’d done the obligatory google search and new that there was every chance it was simply breakthrough bleeding and not anything more sinister. Whilst the bleeding largely remained as spotting, now and then there were larger smears when wiping. No matter how much my partner tried to reassure me with facts and figures I couldn’t help but the let the panic well up inside me.

In the end I phoned 111 who arranged for us to have an early scan at the Early Pregnancy Unit (EPU) on the Friday once I was six weeks. Those five days were hell. Whilst the bleeding was intermittent, it was still there and I found myself unable to relax and switch off the negative thoughts. Friday morning came and whilst my partner sat beside me reminding me that it was positive I was still experiencing constant sickness, I couldn’t pay attention, I simply counted down the minutes until the scan.

As I was only 6 weeks gestation the ultrasound had to be carried out internally. The sonographer was lovely and kept us calm and reassured throughout as she talked through each part of the producer. Seeing our little bean’s heartbeat on the screen was an emotional moment, I couldn’t quite believe it was still there. It’s a moment I’ll always treasure. The cause of the bleeding couldn’t been seen but at least this provided reassurance nothing sinister was going on.

I’d like to say this experience means I would panic less if this was to ever happen again, however I’m the type of person who panics very easily; I’m sure I’d be just as worked up if it was to happen again.20160923_091513_zpsoyzn9t86


It’s positive!

Sitting at the kitchen counter I was chatting with my partner wolfing down my dinner, my plate loaded with twice the amount I would normally eat. In frustration, I placed my fork down and excused myself for the umpteenth as I needed the loo again. “Anyone would think you were pregnant” my partner quipped. I laughed it off and told him to stop being silly. However, as dinner went on and nausea hit me for the fourth night in a row I couldn’t help but entertain the possibility that perhaps he was right.

The prospect was entirely plausible, due to my host of conditions I am unable to use the majority of contraceptive options available as they have a negative impact on my body. Due to this we rely solely on condoms. I knew there had been one incident that month where the condom had not held up, however I never thought to act on this. And now here I sat, alternating between running to the loo due to the urge to be sick and to pee.

The following morning I nervously headed into to town to buy a Clear Blue and a First Response pregnancy test. Sure, enough there were those two lines. Whilst this pregnancy is a surprise, and I have no idea how it may impact my health, we are looking forward to meeting our little bundle of joy in 2017.